Life is an extraordinary challenge right now. I can't stand to be inside my body. I just feel like I need a break. The intense pain is throughout my spine--cervical, upper thoracic, and lumbar. During the bad times of day, when the pain increases, I also get overwhelmed with feelings of nausea and general sickness. The only place I get relief is by spending time in bed. Even that doesn't help at times. Then, I have to use the pain meds. My level of functioning is essentially zero. It is just such a difficult time. I have no idea what all of these tests are going to show. Will they be able to find out what's wrong? Will it be something they can fix?
I just don't know. I've had to give up working for now, and I'm missing out on things I'd really like to be doing. I really hope it can be helped. I feel like I'm losing everything.
