Wednesday, August 20, 2008

Sick and sad

Some days, I just want to give up.
It all seems like too much.
How to go on.
The body is so weak, so tired, so sick.
I can't be the person I want to be,
the person I'm meant to be.
I hurt.
No one can do anything.
Nothing can help.
I fear.
I may fail.
I may not be able to live this life.
I live the bare minimum.
But even that may be too much.
For this body,
This weak and tired body.
Just to start a day is a battle.
How to continue.
How to push forward.
How, when I am so alone.
When no one can understand.
When no one has answers.
When I am bound to let everyone down.
When I may not make it through this.
When the most I have to offer may never be enough.

How to not give up?